It’s not blogging; it’s me. (I couldn’t resist.)
Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not going to delete my blog or anything, but I have decided I’m done with trying to do blogging the “right way.” This means the way that says blog posts should be a certain length to keep people interested or always have a photo or be teaching something. It’s the way that says blogging should alwaysalwaysalways be done on a set schedule because it keeps people expectant. Simply put, it’s tiring. It’s not fun. All it does is make me feel guilty or unproductive or forced or stuck in a cycle of comparison with other bloggers who aren’t even doing the same thing I am. That doesn’t make any sense, does it?
I’ve experienced blogging in a lot of different styles over the years. I started in middle school with little thought to who might read it; rather, it was the genuine online journal style of blogging. It was for me and maybe a friend or two.
Then, in college, I started getting into more serious blogging. I began with trying to chronicle my experience when I started school as writing practice but quickly tumbled into the blogging world as we see it now: schedules, sponsors, meticulous photography. Now I know a surprising amount about how to blog, but I still don’t have an interest in doing it that way, not like I used to when I first discovered the style. Instead, that Livejournal mentality has always stuck with me, and I’m now giving in to the fact that that’s how I prefer to do it, much like writing zines or journaling–so that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to write a blog post when I feel like it without pressuring myself to have something done for certain days of the week. I’m going to write about what strikes me without focusing specifically on things that might be useful. I do plan to continue my recurring posts because I enjoy them and the ways they get me thinking, but other than that, there’s little to no plan.
The goal is to avoid forcing myself to do anything if I don’t want to, to avoid feeling like I’m not doing what I should–to ignore that idea of “should” altogether. I’m more writing minded than business minded, and it’s time I focus on that.